So, I do not have the promised essay. I already said that it was proving unwieldy. I’m also finding that my writing process is not conducive to a steady blogging habit (never mind that I do not have home internet access.) If I want to post something more than an update, and I want to revise it a few times over to be good enough before I make it available for human consumption, my practise is not amenable to the internet. Of course, one of the great problems with internet culture is that we value speed over accuracy, clarity, or excellence.
I am also discovering other, more disturbing things about my writing. By which I mean that I am finding I really enjoy writing poetry. I call it “disturbing” half-jokingly. Before the summer began, I vowed to never write poetry except under duress (or a professor’s assignment, which can be kind of the same thing.) But I got a hold of a good instructor who overturned the reasons that I didn’t like poetry: that much contemporary was sloppy and vague, where I value rigour, clarity, and accuracy. My misconceptions I blame on high school, the last time I had formal instruction in poetry. But I realise now that a) a high-school teacher is often forced to make compromises in order to make poetry palatable to students who Will Not Like It; b) there is only so much a teacher can teach when confined to teaching a single “unit” on poetry; and c) the average high-schooler is not ready for the more intricate nuances of contemporary poetry.
There is of course a more serious reason why I’m concerned that I am finding my greatest writing faculty to be in poetry. As someone who considers his message more important than the messenger, I worry that I will be expressing that message in the medium that receives the least care or attention in our culture, not to mention the fact that I somehow have to feed myself.
But what can I do? I soldier on. I keep cranking out poetry. And I focus on this semester–I am only a writing undergraduate. I will be taking a class this semester called “1000 Words or Less” for the express purpose of helping me to become a better online writer. The aforementioned essay series will be published here, but on my terms and in my time. It’s the only way I can do a blog.